Just some ponderings….

…do you ever have like a moment when you feel really accomplished or good or like the shit and all of a sudden you wanna sing “bacardi ..and cola..they get the job done!”

…and am i the only one who still has no idea what the boy screamed at the end of “The Neverending Story” when he had to give the empress a name?

….i wanna work at the office in the Nextel commercial where the white guys are dancing in slow motion to Salt N Pepa.

RANTS FOR YOUR TYPICAL DAY

feel to free to add your own …..

Elevators:
1. what the fuck, don’t fucking saunter to the damn doors, we’re all here waiting for your confused slow ass!

2. Let me off!

3. Hey, stop! There’s someone behind your blind ass, back up!

Subways:
1. (on the platform) Where the fuck is the train. Jesus, I hate the fuckin’ trains.
(fifteen minutes later) I’m gonna kill someone. When the train comes, I’m gonna flip off the driver, I swear to god! Fuck the strike, where the hell is the train, it’s rush hour for god’s sake!

2. (on the train) Can you get the fuck from in front of the door so I can get on please? Yeah, I’m lookin at you.

3. Why aren’t we moving? What the fuck. I hate the fuckin’ train so much.

4. So what’s my excuse for being late gonna be today?

5. She doesn’t look that old, I’m not getting up. I just sat my ass down.

6. O shit, where’s my wallet?

7. Damn, why’s the conductor so loud, I can’t even hear my iPod, why she hollerin’?

8. Ok, I can’t understand a word the conductor just said. Why are we stopped?

9. One day, I’m gonna call Dr. Zizmor…

10. (off the train) LET ME OFF motherfuckers!

Sidewalks:
1. Motherfuckin’ tourist, I’m gonna kill one of your ratty ass kids if you don’t stop staring at the big Red Lobster and get from the middle of the goddamn sidewalk and let me pass through.

2. I know she’s cold, it’s not cute.

Work:
1. fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck….

Herpecin-L

This chick actually seems pretty cool but I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t point out the extreme WTF action going on on her lips. Maybe bright pink lipstick wasn’t the best color, those sores are hard to cover up!

http://www.newyorkmetro.com/nymetro/arts/music/15528/

I keeps it…

"..and when he get on, he’ll leave yo’ ass ‘fo a white gurl"

A Moment At Work

4:55 PM
black male friend: i need some godamn poontang, this celibacy thing is a bitch.
me: ew
black male friend: no im serious, i want some pussy.
me: then get some
bmf: like i wanna fuck a white girl
me: wtf?!
bmf: i dunno. i need some white pussy
me: u r seriously fucked up
bmf: they are easy and submissive
me:….
bmf: what?

- 20 minutes later –

me: your comment, man….i’m puttin’ that up, but don’t worry, not your name.
bmf: where??
me: my blog
bmf: yay! i made it
me: what?
donald: no put my name
me: o my god.

I have 6 rings on my cock

Is there just some requirement to find the most insane person in NYC for the Look Book? He hasn’t bathed, his clothing can be found on nearly anyone below 8th street and his eyeshadow is meant to remind him of “yesterday.” Who the fuck’s paying thousands of dollars for his work?

Spare the rod….

So today, Cesar Rodriguez admits to the beating and killing of his stepdaughter, 7-year-old Nixmary Brown. One has to be a little taken aback that he’s willing to open up publicly and, frankly, i was initially a little impressed. Until i heard him say he wanted to give “his side” of the story. What side of a story do you have for not spanking, but beating up a 34-pound girl??? He called her “mischievous”, “stubborn” and “disobedient.” He said she cut her siblings hair, broke things, stole and attacked her siblings. So far, this sounds like typical behavior of a 7-year-old, the latter especially sounds like that of an already abused or neglected child. Considering allegations that Rodriguez molested her as well, the behavior is nearly textbook. Rodriguez called her “a handful” and mentioned asking ACS for help as well as wanting to send the child to live with her grandmother. Both times, he was faced with objection. So once again, ACS failed a child and her obviously disturbed and out-of-control guardian.

It’s too easy to rant on the clearly disturbing comments of a grown ass man defending himself for killing a child, a child he even says gave him so much trouble, almost saying she deserved to die. It’s obvious that she became the target of a helpless man’s self-pity and ensuing bitterness and rage. But worst thing today isn’t even this story. I was telling someone about it this morning and without knowing 2 cents about the case, he responds, “Well, is he wrong? Kids these days can be bad.” Before I could get myself together from that, he asks me if I believe in spanking and discipline. Clearly, he didn’t know an iota of this unique case of torture and abuse. Nevertheless when I tried to explain it to him, he still defended the possibility that in essence, the child deserved to be tied to a chair at night, molested, beaten and killed. Just a spankin gone awry to him I guess. Little does he know, Rodriguez was raised as a beaten child too, claiming his mother beat him until her arms were numb. So I guess I’ll be seeing this guy’s face in the papers 20 years from now for killing his child, too. That is, if ACS still hasn’t gotten its shit together.

5 dead in 4

So… what the fuck do you have to do to actually get fired from the ACS (Administration for Children’s Services)?! Ignore warning signs? No. Don’t follow up on reports of abuse and truancy? Nope. Have one of your cases DIE? No problem! You’ll just get transferred to a different supervisor or if Mattingly’s really pissed, you miiiight get suspended with no pay. But you’ll be back to work eventually to continue not checking up on more beat up kids.

Today, the Times reported that ACS has suspended or re-assigned 6 workers from the case of the beaten, tortured and murdered 7-year-old in Brooklyn. I know social work is a totally different industry than the one I’m in, where you’re dog-tired and no one acknowledges the work you do…wait a minute, that sounds like nearly everyone’s job. But ok, if I fuck up, no one’s going to get beat upside the head, no ones going to get tied to a radiator and beaten to death…the worst that could ever happen if I screw up is a magazine won’t be as good as it usually is. A social worker fucks up and a kid may lose his/her life or at least, live a very miserable one. And I know it’s rough, I get it. But last I checked, no one holds a gun to anyone’s head to work for ACS. Yes, we all have different circumstances and more or less options, but so what. If you got less options and have to take a shit job, pick up garbage, don’t take control of kids lives. If you can’t do it, don’t.

It’s been sad yet heartwarming to see the public sorrow and outrage over this little girl’s death, but I’m wondering where the hell is the outrage that five kids have died in four months under the watch of ACS and today, it suspended some folks? Does that make any sense to anyone? If it does, please do explain it to me.

Hell, maybe I’m in the wrong business. I know I can only screw up but so many times til I’m given the boot from my job. Clearly, that’s not the case with ACS, which deals with much more serious consequences than your average corporate “bottom line.” Is this where guidance counselors are sending our apathetics and underachievers: “Don’t give a shit, Susie Q? I know the perfect place!”

Honestly I don’t know what frightens me more, the sad short life of Nixmary Brown, the suspensions of the folks that essentially ignored her plight and sped up her death or the fact that in the end, nobody, including us, really give a shit.

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HNIC-to-be

So at work, we’re working on the annual AGE issue for the mag – where we feature women of all ages who’ve done amazing things in the arts, business, media, etc. and i’m compiling lists (given from all the editors) of all potentials in all decades from teens to 90s. right before the meeting with the big E to go over the potentials, it dawns on me that there’s not one colored chick in the list, not a ONE. so as i’m debating whether or not i’ll end up selling my soul to get a career here, my editor comes back scrambling for me to find out about Dr. Stephanie J. Hull..the first black headmistress of NYC’s Brearley school. Ho! Somebody must have noticed something wrong in the meeting because that’s just waaaay too
coincidental.

And just when i was giving the mag some more credit, I get my file on Hull back from the big E with a note: “This woman is not too gorgeous.” Well, the 5 minutes were nice while they lasted.

So looks like this year’s big issue will be lily-white as usual!
because, you know, black people look like shit after 40.

UPDATE: Coincidentally, now I (my entry level ass) have been asked to find a black woman for the age issue (note the just one). My boss said something to the effect of “I dunno if you know of anyone…” KNOW OF??? Right, because we’re all cousins.